My first pregnancy story/ birth story

My story begins around November 2015. 

I felt like I had everything what I wished for :  I had a great relationship, I found the love of my life,he asked the big question and I said yes(we’re still not married though), we just moved into our new beautiful flat , my job was ok, his job was ok , we traveled a lot, we were independent and young and free, we love each other deeply but something was missing...

You know the feeling when you just sit and think to yourself that it's time for a change in your life?

I realised I'm ready to have a baby. We are ready to have a baby. To be a family. 

So we talked about it , and I we decided that I'm not taking the pill anymore and we'll see how soon it's going to happen. It was November at the time.

In March 2016 , when we went to Barcelona I felt a little bit different, I thought it's just excitement over the journey and everything, but soon after we came back to the UK I felt more and more sick , and it was so suspicious, so my friend gave me a pregnancy test.

It was unfortunately negative . Then I tried two days later and it was a slightly darker line , then a day later I tried another and it was a massive positive test.

I couldn’t believed my eyes! 

I was so over the moon and back, never felt happier in my life.

I got pregnant so quickly that everything was a shook I wanted to know anything about pregnancy and I couldn’t kept my happiness inside of me, I had to tell the great news to my mother.

My first scan was in June. 

I can't describe the feeling how touching it was to hear another human's heart beating inside of me , how unbelivable it was to see her for the first time moving - that I couldn't even felt at the time,- and it became very very real that we are going to be parents!!!! 

The both of us was crying in the scanning room, we were so happy! 

This is her first ever picture. We didn't know that time that we're having a girl. 

My first three months was very awful.   

I was very sick so many times during the day, it was a suffer to work as well .

When the morning sickness stopped , I felt so much better. 

My sypmthomes were typical: I was just hungrier and more exhausted. At the end of the day sometimes I had to take a nap straight after work.

Then at the second scan - which was in August - we found out that we're having a baby girl, even though we were expecting a boy because my fiancées family is full of boys, so it was a pleasant surprise. 

She was so perfect!

I felt her moving from the 16th week and after that it became stronger and more frequent to feel her in my tummy - which is the most wonderful feeling in the whole wide world - .

Then around October my tummy started to grow rapidly, I felt exhausted, moody and hungry , like all the time. 

Everything was normal with her growing and my pregnancy was stated as a low risk pregnancy.

My due date was on the 22nd of December, we were so excited to have her around Christmas time.

I just couldn't wait to have her in my arms.

The last stage was a real suffer for me.

My belly became huge, I couldn't sleep because of it, it was hard to even walk to the grocery store. My legs became so heavy .

On my due date nothing really happened.

I went to visit my midwife and she said it's a usual thing that babies are late -espacielly girls - , so we waited two more weeks, then she offered me to have a membrane sweep. Which sounds like something that you should be afraid of, but it’s really not a big deal. 

I’ve heard some say it hurts and some say it’s not a pleasant feeling but helps.

So I wasn’t sure if I want to do it or not. 

I browsed online about it, and on the Nhs site there’s a load of informatinos about pregnancy and it’s one of their topics. 

Really worth a read for everyone who’s unsure.

So I went for it.

Well that really didn’t do anything for me, nothing happened after that and then she did it twice after a few days.

Eventually they told me they have to induce me on the 4th of January if nothing happens. Because my baby was fine, she was moving and her heart beat was normal, her or my health wasn’t in any kind of risk she booked the appointment for my induction.

I was very upset...

We were waiting for her to come for so long now, I felt like a huge whale and to be honest I felt really uncomfortable in my body. It was like it’s not even my body anymore and my face looked wierd.

On New Years Eve I felt a sharp pain in my tummy, it became more frequent and painful through the evening so I called the hospital but they said I have to stay at home as it's not that frequent ,maybe it's just an early stage of labour. 

So I stayed at home, but the pain was constant, in every 5-6 minutes I felt it.

I was suffering so much , at the end I couldn't eat, couldn't even sleep!

The pain was always 5 minutes apart, I've spent the night in the bath tub.

I called the midwifes again but she said it's still too far, but I was in pain for two days at that time and I panicked. Something was wrong.

So I told them I can't really feel the baby moving and I'm really afraid something is not right.

They gave me an appointment for the next day 10 o'clock, and after a scan they found out that I couldn't pass urine and I was right, I was in labour, I was 4cms dilated by the time.

The main problem was that my oxytocin level was so low that without any help I couldn't gave birth on my own, so from a normal low risk pregnancy , I went to high risk because all of these things. 

They took me to a delivery room straight away where they monitored me and the baby. I had the kindest midwifes that day, I couldn’t wished for better. 

Then I asked for pain relief straight away, eventually I was in pain for two days that time. So epidural it is! The strange thing that I wasn't even afraid of it. 

I had my birth plan, I planned to give birth without any pain relieves, you know, what every Mom imagine, candles, quite music.... but the truth is... It hurts more , than thinking about these things....

So after two days of pain, I couldn't hesitate and ask for epidural straight away! 

My body was in so much stress, it was sooo good after and I could finally rest a little, eventually I needed the strength and energy  to give birth.  

Anyways around 2 am , 4-5 people came into my room, woke me up, I was terrified....

Then the doctor explained that I have roughly 2hours to give birth naturally to my child, and ig it's  not possible then they have to do c-cestion to help.

So I remember saying it to my husband, we have to do this, I have to do this.

After that the midwife said around half past 2, it's time to try, and I began to feel the pain stronger and stronger again, they've stopped giving me epidural so I felt everything!

And somehow I managed to put myself together and with all my strength and after that little rest I gave birth to my daughter at 4:12 in the morning.

She was perfect,  and all the pain and everything worth it ans went away the moment I could held her in my arms.

Daddy cut the cord and it was just the three of us. That was the hardest and most beautiful day in my life. 

And now...here we go again, with baby number two,  due also in January 😄